I’ve lost my drive.
It’s a beautiful day out, and I’m laying in bed feeling sorry for myself. I wonder where my drive went. The drive I once had to succeed in life, and make it big! The drive to achieve greatness and to never settle for anything less. The drive to stand up for myself and not take anyones B.S.
Obviously I’ve lost my drive, but what sucks more is that I haven’t done anything to find it. I need to get myself together and fight for what I want. And what I want is to succeed. I want to have a great job in life, and I want to be treated with respect from elders. I want to be looked at as an achiever and not a slacker. I want to have the ability to graduate college without having a 30 thousand dollar debt. And if that means I work three jobs, then so be it.
Although, I’m currently struggling with that entire concept to begin with. The concept of applying for a “Student Loan.” Looking back, I never thought I’d have to receive a loan to go to school. My parents planned on paying for my education, but sadly things have changed and now it is up to me. So the choice was mine… Get a loan or drop out of college. And Since I’m trying to find my drive… I decided dropping out was NOT an option. However, paying for school myself makes things more stressful and more aggravating, Why you may ask? because my college is SHIT when it comes to enrolling for classes. Departments are impacted and classes are always wait-listed or not even offered. So this causes me to take classes I don’t want or need. It truly is a bummer.
