Where has the time gone….
Everyday is bittersweet! I want it to hurry up and end, yet I do not want the days to pass me bye. Time is flying bye and I need it to stop! I’m terrified of growing up…. I do not have a plan and I live off of plans, I need a plan, so not having one is killing me right now. I’m genuinely worried. I’m worried that I won’t have a job, money, a place to live, and won’t live happily ever after… (I know that’s cliche) but It would be nice to see some sort of happy ending in the future and not a mystery… ANYWAYS I’ll be starting my third year of college and I don’t even want to be a CHAD major anymore. Yes kids are cool and interesting to learn about, but working with them till I’m old enough to retire sounds insane. I prefer to find a career where I can direct and make choices for myself and be my own manager. Mainly because I’m tired of always working for someone and I love to direct people! But obviously neither of those things have to do with working with children. Unless maybe I run and own a day care. Or have my own office that has to do with counseling children. Then maybe it won’t be to bad….. I just wish I had a passion for something….
Yayy to Thursday nights laying in bed feeling sorry about myself. But I guess sometimes shit happens and sadly I make it better by shopping, eating, beings lazy, and complaining. And now that I completed them all I feel so much better. HA. Work in the morning and then who knows what. And NO I do not plan my life day by day, altho I wish I did because then I would keep myself busy. Grr to being a capricorn they are definitely the most uninteresting sign of the bunch hehe.
