December 2011
4 posts
can only hope
I hope my psychic aunt is right when she says I’m going to be successful! Because I can only hope that my future is better then what it is right now. But I guess I’m still “young,” I guess I still have time to make something of myself. I still have time to be better then 50% of the population. And god do I want to be better then these people. NO offense. But here is my...
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"
On days like this, I have to stop and think about the good things in my life. I have to remind myself that everyday isn’t like today. So Here I go… I’m grateful for the people I have in my life and for the boy who continues to love me even though I’m not perfect. I’m truly sorry for being that crazy girlfriend every once in awhile. But I believe love makes people go...
October 2011
1 post
Just another update.
It’s definitely not summer anymore.. As it is currently raining and cloudy out. Funny thing is I just learned what all the different types of clouds are. apparently their are low level clouds, middle level, and high level clouds. In which I don’t really know their names yet.. Ha I’v never been good with names.
This week has been way less stressful tho. To the point where I...
“If I’m not strong enough, would you love me
If I need you too much, would...”
– Katrina Elam “Would You Love Me Anyway”
September 2011
6 posts
Explosion
I’m counting down the days till my head explodes….
Just today I spent a good 8 hours catching up on school work. (Major Nerd Alert) ha. I know thats a bit ridiculous But I have (4) major exams coming up and of course none of them will be the simple common sense kind of questions. Therefore, I had to get a semi-head start. I mean who can retain (4) totally different subjects in one...
Back in class....
Well, KIND OF!
I technically only have one class a day with the exception of my night class on thursdays. But I gotta admit it is pretty nice having an easy week! So lets see my teachers are all pretty cool in their own “ways.” My math teacher has a squeaky voice and is extremely quirky, my meteorology teacher is by far the best always claiming that after his class will all want to...
July 2011
1 post
What to take?
For some reason I can’t figure out what is wrong with me.. I thought I had a cold, then I thought I had a bad headache and now I’m wondering if It’s my sinuses. My head feels like a ballon with too much air in it! I can’t think straight and if I move my head any direction too quickly the pressure in my head intensifies. Weird! But i’ve taken aspirin, day-quill and now...
June 2011
4 posts
So I've Just realized...
After looking through my posts with boyfriend chilling next to me, that about 90 percent of my posts are negative in some way… Apparently I only blog when something makes me mad ha. So now my new goal is to blog more often so I share more then negative things with people… Hmm because honestly I don’t want to worry anyone who happens to read my posts. Life isn’t all that...
It's like high school all over again...
Not having a car. Having to ask for a ride. And not being able to go somewhere you want to go. The worst part is the reason I don’t have a car and can not drive was totally out of my control.. Now all I can do is wait and learn to love VTA.
I've lost my drive.
It’s a beautiful day out, and I’m laying in bed feeling sorry for myself. I wonder where my drive went. The drive I once had to succeed in life, and make it big! The drive to achieve greatness and to never settle for anything less. The drive to stand up for myself and not take anyones B.S.
Obviously I’ve lost my drive, but what sucks more is that I haven’t done anything...
May 2011
6 posts
Where has the time gone....
Everyday is bittersweet! I want it to hurry up and end, yet I do not want the days to pass me bye. Time is flying bye and I need it to stop! I’m terrified of growing up…. I do not have a plan and I live off of plans, I need a plan, so not having one is killing me right now. I’m genuinely worried. I’m worried that I won’t have a job, money, a place to live, and...
“So your Brad Pitt…. That don’t impress me much, so you’ve got...”
– Shania Twain.
It's official
I dislike most people. Especially those who say things to ruin your day, and treat you like shit because they are older. But seriously we are all adults here so why don’t you go….. I’ll watch my language. Anyways, I feel like shit and that makes me more angry when people walk all over me.
March 2011
11 posts
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
I don’t really have anything great to say today, but I wanted to post something anyway.
School was hectic this week and nothings better then walking around campus in a rainstorm with two broken umbrellas, wet socks and shoes with minimal grip to the extremely slippery sidewalk. Ha but luckily hell led to Spring Break!
Now I just hope I make this break worth while because I know one I go...
spring break couldn't come any slower
Counting down the days till break. I know it’s only a week but hey that’s still a week I don’t have to think about the 1900’s or try and think “critically” or memorize body organs and their million different functions…. Phew it’s no wonder school makes me crazy and or constantly sick! Currently, I have no voice :x Well, technically I have a voice,...
Stuck In Reality
There’s always going to be things I dislike about my life, and I know I can’t sit here and complain about those things, but for some reason I woke up this morning and those things I dislike came toppling down on me (without a warning).
I feel like life isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, I feel like I don’t have a reason to be here, I feel like I’ve lost more...
“Love has a thousand faces, but I see you.”
– Randy Montana
“I wonder how many people I’ve looked at all my life and never seen.”
– John Steinbeck, The Winter of Our Discontent (via steff-uh-neegrace)
Ten past 12
It’s late on a Thursday night and I’m chilling in bed feeling needy, hungry, and of course wide awake. So why not blog about..
First and for most, my week was starting off pretty swell till my mom on monday night jinxed me and my health, word for word: “watch your going to wake up sick tomorrow.” (mom)
And what do you know I woke up feeling like a dead fly stuck to a web...
February 2011
1 post
Once again its been awhile...
So for those who thought I fell off the planet let me prove to you I still exist ha.
Spring semester obviously started and for some reason my second set of classes always seem 10x harder, or maybe I’m just brain dead after the first semester.. either way my classes are killing me slowly. Not because they are EXTREMELY hard, but because they require time and dedication in which I...
January 2011
18 posts
"Oh these times are hard, ya they are making us...
I wish I had enough money to afford myself. Ha that sounds weird, but basically no matter how hard I try I will NEVER have enough money to feed myself let alone live on my own. And I SERIOUSLY can’t live at home forever I’m fricken 20 years old!!! SO I think it’s time I grow up and find myself either a higher paying job or a few more so I can’t start saving and find some...
poor spider...
Ya know your going crazy when you actually feel bad about a spider. So basically, I came home and jumped in the shower to realize there was a spider sitting in the corner or maybe it was standing? But for the most part I don’t really like spiders and I rarely (if that) feel bad for them, but this one just looked so sad. It was just stuck in one place, and it was unable to move because of all...
“You cant trust somebody who thinks you’re crazy.”
– Penelope Cruz (via kari-shma)
Currently.
My head is pounding
My eyes are aching
I’m hot and then cold
I’m tired but can’t sleep
I’m upset for no reason
I’m hungry, but don’t need to be eating
So instead… here I am…
Writing a poem; At 3:40
In the morning….
“Pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less...”
– P!ink (F*ckin Perfect)
20 years later.
TWENTY is an odd number even tho its technically “even” but think about it you are no longer a “teen” but at the same time you aren’t 21… which is the age to be, or so i’ve been told…. Therefore, this year I didn’t really care nor feel the need to “celebrate” for my birthday but that doesn’t mean I didn’t have...
A blur.
It’s already the 5th of 2011. And I haven’t even came up with a New Years Resolution… Anyways, 2010 seems like a blur to me not because I was out of it or anything but because time goes by way too fast. And to be honest I have a major problem of “living in the moment” But I guess worst moment would be: Losing touch with someone I’ve known for years and Best...
